WORD of the day XVI, by Samuel Bostick.
Why adv. 1) For what cause, reason or purpose.
WORD of the Day: Why
I do it cause it gives me relief
This was never something I dreamed of
Not something I ever thought was cool nor planned.
I do this cause I must.
It has called me the same way adventure called Beowulf;
It’s a matter of the heart.
It has become a passion. Revealed itself as a gift.
I would be ungrateful to not do it.
Blasphemous denial to not.
(Thas not by any means an option)
Its creative, its expressive,
it unwinds the knots in my mind.
Its an exercise.
Before this I was much more unsettled.
The torment is undeniable, never ending, still it helps to have a release
A productive release.
This is my art, I take this shit serious.
I’m sensitive about it sometimes.
I am but a man.
My soul on the other hand…thas another story, another many stories.
Before this I was reckless, I cared too much.
I was lost even.
I’ve found a voice, my voice in this.
Don’t get any crazy thoughts, there is much more to me than what I do when the pen is in my hand.
I’m just saying.
This is One of my Tools.
And I love it.
I am captivated with it.
I once had no beliefs.
Self-hate, confusion, silence
A number in the scheme of things.
A patron to the matrix.
I found lust before I understood passion
Before I was brave enough to really search,
Before I was bold enough to fully be myself.
I’m not trying to get all sentimental, this is a Word about Why.
A word about purpose, reason and cause.
I write cause this is what I’m meant to do,
I write cause I want to.
I write cause I can.
Above all, I write cause I must.
Its not an option…
Thank you to those who helped me recognize my gift, for those who believed in me and still do. Those who saw something in me before I even did.
All that said, That’s why.
Reflection and Response.
the LIFESTYLE’s role is to create collective space for active Reflection and Response through the arts. This space is built around dialogue, expression, collaboration, and artistic (ex)change involving international craftspeople and their realities. The Porch Swing series opens up a Reflection and Response residency where we feature a Collective member’s ongoing project through weekly installations.